~天秤座~ ♥ ♥ ~LIBRA~

代表人物：《银魂》坂田银时

身为天秤,出生在秋天的天秤,忧郁是与生俱来的-----尽管人前你见不到一个愁眉苦脸的天秤,甚至很多人认为天秤是一个大大咧咧的粗线条.天秤太善于伪装,或者说,不愿意让不了解的自己的人过多地知道自己的心情. 在爱中,尤其如此.天秤的爱永远像是暗恋:有好感的时候,听到对方的名字，看到对方的身影,都会有一种不一样的感觉,但是自己会很克制不表现出来.即使有机会在一起,在众人当中,天秤跟谁都谈笑自如，亲切有加,惟独对自己在意的那个人,远远的,只用余光感受他的存在.他的一个表情,一句话,都在天秤心里引起阵阵涟漪.这样做的结果,往往是求近而得远.但是没有办法,天秤就是这样无法克服自己的本能.面对喜欢的人,会莫名地自卑羞怯.其实天秤是很善于和异性相处的,从小到大,也不缺乏哥们似的朋友.但是,对自己喜欢的那个人,她做不到那样洒脱.哪怕只是主动地打个招呼,也会紧张对方会不会看透自己的心思.天秤期待爱,但又恐惧爱的力量会将自己拖入万劫不复的深渊. 即使两个人最终相爱了,天秤依然表现得冷静有余,热情不足.她会在任何时刻想到你,天气的变化，随便遇到的什么人或者事,念头一闪就转到你的身上去.她会在夜晚想着你的好或者不好,高兴或者难过地默默流泪.她会设身处地为你想很多很多,甚至想得太周到连你自己都想不到的周到.她会为你的某个失误找各种各样的借口,在质问你之前已经原谅了你,但是还是要你一个解释,一个简单的合理或者不合理的解释就轻易能让她释怀.她会为要不要给你打电话或者发短信犹豫很久,生怕打扰到你或者令你不方便不耐烦.她会想象出无数个美好的相处场景,沉浸其中不能自拔. 但这一切,她不会让你知道.天秤并不缺少爱的能量,但缺少爱的勇气.或者说,如果有什么是天秤不能为你做的事情的话,那就是放弃自尊.自尊是天秤的最后一块堡垒,生死共存.天秤看上去开朗,其实细腻而心重.她一生都在期待真正懂她的感情的那个人.你来了,她有多么激动;可是,她又不敢相信那个人真的就是你.她等得太久太苦,以至于都绝望了.所以当那个人出现的时候,她反而慌乱失措了.她不知道如何在一个热烈的爱人与优雅的女人之间做出选择,你更喜欢哪一个呢?她不断地问自己.一方面,她也在不断地问自己:我这样做会不会失去自我?他会喜欢这样的我吗?如果她不喜欢,我怎么样做回自己? 这样复杂而强烈的情绪,你不会真正体味得到.天秤掩饰得那么好,只会对你微笑,即使流泪,也是静静的,不会哭喊发作.如果有伤害,她会一个人反复回味,直到在痛的重复体验中失去痛的敏感,再原谅你,继续.她不大会谴责,不大会推卸责任,她永远把错先揽在自己一边.甚至归结为自己个性的缺陷.天秤在爱里的自卑使她不得不这样在黑暗里爱着.她怕你知道她的"不好",她自以为是的不好.也怕你为她而难过伤心,那样还不如她自己独自忍受.也许伤到最后,天秤发现自己无力再承受了,她会安静地走开.绝望与崩溃,也不会让你看到,哪怕她痛苦到极点,你看到的,仍然是一个平静的天秤;顶多,有些冷漠.那冷漠也未必是针对你,很可能，是针对爱的. 天秤知道,最输不起的,就是感情.交付起来,是一点点,一滴滴,直至沦陷;破碎时,却是大厦倾颓,天昏地暗.她了解人性中的任何世俗与卑微的心理,她怕自己柔弱的爱情成为这些丑恶的猎物.-----这就是天秤,即使受伤,她依然会把过错归于人性的弱点,而不会,真正地去恨.你看到她淡淡地来,淡淡地去了,却不知道,她的心无声地碎裂成了什么样子. 天秤的爱情就像在上演的一部电影，他们就在这出戏里，眼看着它从开始到结束。落幕并不可怕，秤子们在乎的是他们成就了一部电影。


天秤不喜欢落入俗套中的爱情。与 天秤爱过的人，也许回头来看，都不知道该怎样去评价那个秤子。爱着的时候是淡淡的，离开的时候也是淡淡的，甚至，连分手的理由都不屑追问。假如一个秤子在你面前掉了一次泪，你决不会想到她在背后曾为你哭过无数回。 天秤的爱情有些自闭。他们喜欢纠缠在回忆里，幻想里，那些破碎不堪的画面对他们来说就意味着完整。其实，做秤子的爱人真是轻松得很，你不用刻意去安排什么浪漫的场合，你什么都不用做。因为， 天秤都有一颗浪漫的心。只要心里有爱，再平凡再普通的事也被他们美化了。


天秤的内心真的是很温柔。这种温柔绝不是娇柔做作的那种，而是有一颗明事理的心。 天秤懂得尊重别人，这并不是人云亦云，事实上，秤子没有那么多的好奇心去在乎每个人的想法，对自己不在乎的人，又何必较真呢？这是秤子做人的道。而对于自己爱的人，他们的一言一行秤子会拿来奉做“圣经”。


天秤喜欢钻牛角尖，没错。一旦他们爱上一个人，就很难再去相信自己的直觉。他们会抓住对方的一句话，一个举动，然后暗地里穷分析，直到得出自己最确信的答案。当然，他们得出的结论也是相对客观的，秤子不会傻到蒙蔽自己。但，殊不知这天底下最难测的就是人心，而喜欢猜心的秤子往往是被自己弄得筋疲力尽的。


爱情是一个人的事。 天秤肯定对这句话大有感触。爱上了，倒反而寂寞了，因为想把自己交给一个人去了解，可这个人懂吗？值得吗？面对着眼前这个若即若离，神秘又淡然的秤子，谁又会想到他们的内心正起着暗涌。而相反的，爱上秤子的人会在某一天突然却步了，想要放弃了。原因只有两点：一是感到缺乏安全感。摸不透秤子的想法，热度也不够，温温的。要知道这世上的俗人千千万，也许他们在认识你的第一天就想着跟你上床，而秤子期待的爱情是首先要建立在精神上的，美的，有幻想空间的。于是，分道扬镳。二是感到秤子的爱是种负担，因为秤子的爱里容不下一粒沙。其实，秤子最喜欢的是和自己过不去，但，人永远无法超越的却是自己。秤子的这个结老也打不开。


天秤多有自虐倾向。他们天生就懂得“悲剧艺术”的魅力，他们的爱情里要是没有一点悲剧色彩，就好象是不完美的。矛盾吧？！虽然，秤子们追求的是幸福美满，但他们又喜欢作茧自缚。失恋的秤子，往往不会寻找什么好的途径来忘却，相反，他们会找出所有的情歌来听，让自己沉浸在其中无法自拔，直到自己都撑不下去为止。 　　也许，只有那种历经坎坷，途径九九八十一难最后才修得正果的爱情才是他们内心最最向往的。所以，要是没有一点“分量”的感情， 天秤有时就会“分心”。


天秤就是这样的，爱到后来也不知道自己在爱什么，冷暖自知...... 很多人讨厌天秤，说天秤们难以捉摸，变化莫测，最会当和事老。其实只是他们不了解天秤，上帝的失误让天秤成为了最悲伤的星座，但是善良的天秤们却是单纯的让人觉得可爱。所以不要琢磨天秤，试着理解天秤你就会爱上她们。 爱上天秤的人也不要困惑，我们是一群没有安全感的孩子，所以我们逃避，我们恐慌，如果你真的爱你的天秤，就把你所能给她的你最大的安全感都给她，最后你会发现爱上一个天秤是多么幸福！


How I hope he could read this. =(
hehe...(#^_^#)

My new ALARM CLOCK~~~

Tamina mina eh eh~

Waka waka eh eh~

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zzzZZZ

*Still sleeping*

Didn't even notice my phone alarm rang.xD

Hence I always tell myself that I need an alarm clock!

A loud loud one!XD

Tried to find one around INTI,

FAILED.

All like small little chick sounds only...= =

Even my phone that cannot wake me up is louder.XD

And I told Nico about that.

Haha..xP

He promised to help me to look for one. YAY!!^^

Haha,so here it is,

Finally,

I HAVE AN ALARM CLOCK!!

^__^

happyyyyyyyyyy~~~

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With the box together.haha

(Front)

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Still in the box.xP

(Back)

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This is it!

Feel like giving it a name,hmm..

How bout whitie?LOL

XDXD

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White colour~~^^

The second colour that I like.

Clever~haha

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Nice or not?haha

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Don't jealous yeah~xD

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The behind of the Clock~haha

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THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

NICO

^__^

*Lets hope that I can wake up on time after this.xP*

*Hopefully won't miss my Final especially*

HAHAHAHA

Today~

Today was supposed to be a normal day as usual,
Then it's not anymore started from evening.
It becomes a sad day,
A day which reminds me of you! T_T

I was studying for the whole morning till 4pm.
Then I went to INTIMA office, to help in decorating soft board.
Then my mood starts to change
When they start talking about their mom. =(
First they was talking about why Kelvin don't go back to his hometown,
Kelvin says his mom don't want him to go back.(LOL)
Then Yuga says it's because his mom don't want to see him crying when he comes back to INTI. (LOL)
And then Nico says he cry not because he miss his mom,
Is because his mom doesn't miss him.(LOL)
*I silent*
I was thinking,
It's impossible for any mom to not to miss her child that is so far away from her.
MOM!! Do you miss me???
No answer, I will never know the answer.
Till the day I meet you again.

After that Ee Ling says she's hungry,
Then the others says go home eat mom's home cook dish la...
Kelvin says: Mom's home cook dish is always the best~
Yeah! I agree!
But I don't have the chance anymore...
Again *I silent*
My home cook dish?Yeah! I do have..
80% I am the one that cook! T_T
Mom!! I miss your dishes!!

Then the last thing,
When I was on my way back,
I saw an ambulance,
It remind me of that time when you were to transfer from Sunway Hospital to Selayang Hospital.
I was in the ambulance,
And you were lying inside too, struggling.
Ignoring the stupid noisy siren,
All in my heart was GOD PLEASE BLESS MOM!
Keep repeating and repeating.
Till we reach Selayang Hospital, and still that sentence still spinning in my mind, and my heart.
Back to the ambulance I saw today,
I keep staring at it,
Until it disappeared from my sight,
When we are trapped by traffic light.(I realize that ambulance not really that fast.xP)
And I prayed in my heart, God bless whoever inside there.=)
Oh yeah~I hate ambulance.
And Hospital,and also western medical.
Thats why,don't ask me to go for a doctor when I'm sick.
I WON'T.xP
Unless being force by someone.><

Oh, that's it.
What happened today that messed up my mood.><

About That person that I Love the Most In My Life~

Do you know that how much I love you?
Do you know that how much I miss you?
Everyday?
I have a photo of you in my room,
On my Desk,
At the most obvious place,
Just right in front of my face as every time I raise my head,
And I stare at it everyday,
For a few minutes,
It's been a routine,
Which I will repeat everyday,
Which make me feel uncomfortable,
When I don't do it.

No one would ever able to replace you in my heart,
Never.
You'll always be the first one in my heart,
Forever.
The others,
Can only be the second, third, forth and ...
I'm not being selfish,
Just that
You're irreplaceable.

Sometimes,
I just hope that I could die now,
So that I can meet you,
And be at your side,
Never need to separate with you anymore,
Cause this burden is just too heavy for me to carry,
Alone, without you by my side.
I'm too tired,
I always wish that you would just appear,
Even just in my dream,
To tell me what to do,
To help me solve all the problems,
Perfectly,
Like you did last time.
Why don't you give me a dream,
Like what others get?
WHY?

Anyway,
I just wanna let you know,
I'm not a little girl anymore,
I've grown up,
I've learnt many things,
I learnt to take care of a family,
I learnt many many things,
I AM NO MORE A SMALL LITTLE GIRL!
You can live your life happily there,
No worries,
I will take good care of this family,
And no worry,
I won't do stupid thing to get to see you.=]
Though how much I miss you.

Now,
All I know is,
I MISS YOU
I LOVE YOU
Can you hear me?
MOMMY!!!
Lastly,mom,
Can you bless everyone here?
I saw a lot of disaster happening recently,
I'm so sad bout it.
I promise,I will try my best,
To make the world better.=]

5N1

My first class in INTI
or
Should I call it a
ZOO???lol
We have so many type of animal here,
Panda,
Kambing,
Kucing,
Biri-biri,
Bear,
Tortoise,
and,what else?
Ah,never mind la~
Owh! We do have something else..
We have Satan~~~
Which until now we still don't know which one is the Satan,
Michelle or Seng Wan?hmm...Haha
and,Stress...LOL

Nice huh?hehe...XD
Lets talk bout the lecturer,the first one we met,
Mr. Aung!!!
Our Maths lecturer,
A very soft guy,haha
That's why always got bully by us..hiek hiek hiek hiek...*evil smile*

then is the second one,
Ms Ooi~~~
Haha,first class still okie la..
Then the following....Haha
Keep fishing lo...><
XP

Oh,of course for the physic class is Mr. Loh la...
Haha,I don't know much bout him.
But did have some misunderstood on him about the Appreciation Night thingy.LOL
Then just few days ago found out that he's actually nice and
FUNNY.LOL

Then the second day we met out third lecturer,
Mr. Robert
Still remember before that, I thought is a female lecturer,
Because the timetable wrote his name Ng Yak Teng.
LOL..It sounds like girl's name..xP

After that is CSC class,
Ms Husha
Haha,still remember,
We meet her for the first time,
Then the following classes keep cancelled
She hilangkan diri...LOL
For a few months.Haha
Then she's back, nothing much change la...
Still the same as the previous lecturer
Haha,SLEEPYYYYY...XD
Oh,and remember,in lab
the boys...Haha,playing dota and cs in the class.= =
LOL

Then the next day~
Chemistry~~Ms Gan!!!
Haha,another lecturer for us to bully...xP
A very small size girl,but eat a lot!
I knew this when we met her in Cafeteria one day.xP

Then follow by MPW, Mr Raymond!
Haha,suddenly become the assistant class rep.= =
WTH? Kavi's fault.
Oh,He's funny!!Like him so much!
Haha,but he's only teaching for a very short term...
Just a few months I guess?

The Forth day we finally met our GNS lecturer,
Ms Jaya!!!
She, very friendly! I love her so so so much! Love the way she teach!
Can't understand why some other people don't like her.Haha..
Anyway,she taught me lots of things,
All bout life.
Will always bear in mind,
Will make my life meaningful to the max,
Will enjoy my life to the max!
And thanks lots!
For everything~
Especially for the Appreciation Night,
It made the bonding between most of us stronger.=)

Owh,so now,
I would like to talk about our FIRST EVER EVENT in INTI!!!!^^
APPRECIATION NIGHT!!!
Thankssss for everyone that helped in this event!!
And for those who didn't,
Haha,your own lost,
You don't learn anything.
Special Thanks to Michelle Tai, Jia Yun, Siva, and Seng Wan^^
For always available when I need your help.=))
I don't mean others don't la..just that when I call this people they always give me the maximum coorperation.^^
Oh, Thanks to Mr. President Sree Shaarmen and Mr. Vice President Nico Mulyawan.
Sorry la..I'm annoying,ask this ask that...><
Thanks for listening to my crap also...hihi
Sorry to Vincent Kua too..><
I purposely don't want to do much on the day before the event de..
I admit, I'm a bit pissed off la,
Seeing you all still playing game,
And you still so relax while you still haven't settle with your speech and haven't found a coat...
And also because I wanna let others do,
I'm tired.Haha,thats all...><
Still on that day itself,
My energy come back again,
Running here and there again.
Got pissed off again,
When others sitting there,
And those who're working really did A LOT, while these people did nothing.
When they are asked to help to get something from academic block
They give all kind of lame excuses,
I was like "GO HELL LA..." = ="
Finally,still the event was success!!
phew~~finally huh!
feel so relax after that...

After that is all our tests, quiz, assignments, reports, and presentations.
All squeeze together,
Especially the last week.
Oh!! Time flies so so so FAST!!
It's already LAST WEEK of 5N1!!!=(
I can still remember we were so quite in our first few weeks,
And still remember Mr Robert said,
It will change after a few weeks,Haha,
He's right!!
We're so so so much more noisier then last time!
I will never remember all of you,
Love this class so so so much!
As like Ms Jaya said,
The first class she ever seen Chinese and Indian can mix so well.^^
A united class ever!
The best class ever!
WE LOVE 5N1!!!!

October

Wow, So fast!
It's finishing!
I love this month soooo much!!^^
Why???
Cause my BIRTHDAY falls on this month!!^^
I celebrated it twice!!!^^
Sooooo Happyyyyyy~hihi
First celebrated by SC members,
Oh,Thank you so much!!!!
Thanks for you lie,Nico Mulyawan...
If not I sure won't appear there.LOL
Anyway,I've actually guessed that it wasn't really meeting.haha
Just pretending.xP

Second time celebrated during LTC~
WOW~Nice experience!^^
Thanks to whoever la that planned this.haha
Sree Shaarmen and Nico Mulyawan,
You two are so good in acting! Oh,I mean Nico,
Shaarmen failed at last...LOL
Scolding like mad,
I was like almost to take the mike and explain,
I didn't participate meh? got what..
Except for the discussion and presentation part la...(having xome fever><)
I was almost to go front and say sorry lo...><
and,
YOU KNOW WHAT???
You two almost made me CRY lo..><
Luckily i successfully control my tears.
If not...damn ugly to cry in front of so many people lo...

LTC was awesome! and so much fun!
I WOULD LIKE TO JOIN IT FOR THE SECOND TIME!!!^^
No other word to describe then FUN!!!hehe
The only problem that it gave me is that I have to clean the muddy heavy jeans.><
HAHA
So,I decided to bring it home to do it.HAHA
Washing it after 1 week..LOL><

Finally,lets talk bout 5N1~!!!
I LOVE IT SO MUCH!
Though I don't really like some people inside.
HAHA
But,I do love the memories we had together,
Appreciation Night especially.
By the way,
More than half of the class went for dinner together
On the second last day of our class,
In Aunty Jenny~^^
hehe,NICE~~
A group of 20 people
Making noise there~:P
Though not all there,
Because some having physic presentation on the next day,
All stress out,haiz..
Can't help a single thing.
Sorry...><
Never mind,lets plan something else after FINAL!!!^^

HOW?

I wanna write something here...
but...
I don't know if you still have my address
and secretly follow me up...
can't simply write something here...
seems like plurk is the only most private place now...
=(
so kelian meh...haiz...
dilemma ar...
wanna let you know my feeling
but dare not to tell you
scare later we couldn't even be friend some more
how?
How?
HOw?
HOW?

2010,the big change in my life

January and February

normal life,worked in daddy's office

what a most boring thing

March

I got my  SPM result!yay!!!

6 A's,not very satisfied,of course i aimed for more.

but,still,happy with it.

at least,not too bad.haha

I can still accept it.

April
I have decided to go KL
study in Malaysia Institute of TCM,
introduced by Dr. Lee Chee Foong.
I have taken a test ,
and, I passed it.
The class was to start on 12/4...
1 week before that,
7th aunt contacted with me and told me about INTI
she said INTI is better for my future,
she said it has a better facilities,
the environment is more suitable for study,
she said it's safer there, unlike KL is too complicated,
she said she wouldn't have to worry about my safety if i study in INTI.
Hence, daddy decided to bring me and 7th aunt to take a visit to INTI.
Daddy was very satisfied with the campus environment,
he registered for me on the spot. Hehe...^_^
[And so that's why i am here now.=)]
May
I came for enrollment,
and then OLE...
Wow!! Its was so so sooo fun!!
How i hope i could join OLE again.hehe
but sad that it is just for new students.=(
I met yong here, he was our group leader.
A little bit weak type.Haha...
Michelle Tai,shhhh....>_<
And i met Michelle here also.Hehe...
We weren't so close that time,but now we make good friend.^_^
Then class started the following week.Nothing special.Everything is just normal.
That's all for this month,nothing much.Haha...
June
Nothing big,
just
test, Test and TEST...
all the lecturers are trying to finish the tests before the break.xD
So, We Suffer.><
haha
August
Sem Break!!! Enjoy~~~
Not really...=(
Got to do assignments.lol
and it was so boring staying home.=(
September
Ah!! GNS event (Appreciation Night) is at the corner,
busy busy busy
nervous nervous nervous
stress stress stress
Ha! Got to say sorry to Nico,lol.
Keep disturbing you during that period.xP
Sorry....I'm annoying.><
OH!! The most important thing in this month!!
I joined INTIMA service cell!!!
Had lots of fun joining this family~^^
But as well as the starting of night mare...LOL
Kar Ping and Kenny!!= =lll
Anyway, still love this family sooooo much!!!
Love you all~=)
October
My birthday!!!
Thanks Service Cell member for celebrating for me.^^
You guys made my 18th Birthday different!!
But kinda sad that you not able to celebrate with me.=(
But I'm already very happy that you sent me a message to wish me.^__^
Arg, here come the disaster,
I WONDER HOW KENNY NG FOUND OUT MY BLOG HUH?!?!
damnnnnn....
Then the Students Forum come,
the very first event of Service Cell.^^
hmm...no comment,still ok la...hehe
Ouch, tonnes of assignments and tests and presentations to prepare for in the very last two weeks of my sem.
So damn busy.><
and it crashed with the forum,
Always can't attend the other meeting for assignments.
I'm so sorry to Gary, Yik Woon and others la...many many.=(
I know I didn't contribute much in the assignments,
but still thanks for not giving me low marks for the peer assessment.
THANKS!!=)
I appreciate it. I promise I will manage my time better next time.=)

busy busy busy

hmm~
It has been quite some times since i last update my blog.
had been way too busy

Finally,
finally finished with the Appreciation Night.
Happy that even the Managing Director of INTI-IU
says,they had never experienced kind of feeling among all the events that had been carried out in INTI.
wooohooooo!!!

Done with few tests this week
Screwed it up.
Whatever~don't care d~

Now I have 4 assignments and 3 reports to do.
><
busy busy busy
final coming,
gotta start studying.