2nd March 2011 (I was touched)

Today I cried, cried for two hours, from 2am till 4am, I just don't know why, just missed you so much, can't stop crying. :(

Then I texted Rich, who also lost her mother when he was younger, when he was 19 I think~

Wow, I was so touched that every messages he replied was sooooo looooong just to calm me down.
Thanks Bold Old Man (BOM)! *touched*

Me: rich... I miss my mum badly. :( I can't stop crying..


Rich: Hey what's wrong...are you ok? Take it easy...where r u? (he replied very fast! guess he was very nervous~><)


Me: in my room, i just dont know why i miss her so much today.


Rich: If u miss her suddenly, that means she is thinking of u =) and shes looking down on u from heaven =) she's in a better place and she's always watching over u, and i'm sure she doesn't wanna see her beloved daughter crying..remember the good times, think of the good times with her, smile for her and make her happy..talk to her,she can hear u..don't forget how much she loves u, when u miss her, look outside at the night sky, look for a star, that's her looking down on u from heaven..so smile for her and thank her for her love and care..talk to her, tell her about your problems,shecan hear u..and most importantly, make her proud of her little girl..don't forget thatshe's always by ur side,no matter what, and always remember that she will always love u no matter what..close ur eyesand u'll see her face, give her a hug, and she will hug u too..I know how u feel, trust me,I do...*hugs* smile for her...


Me:the good times make me miss her even more.. i know you do, thats why i choose to tell u, cos only u can understand the feeling.


Rich: Just remember she'll always love u...and she's always watching u...she doesn't want u to cry...when u cry u are making her cry too...I'm sure u don't want that to happen too rite? Wipe ur eyes..wash ur face..givve a smile for her, I know it hurts inside, I know how it feels...I know it's not easy to smile with that feeling inside...say a prayer for her and close ur eyes n dream or her...I know right now u are feeling that u would give anything just to see her one last time, but she wants u to make her proud, to live ur life to the fullest,to be happy...I know its hard not to cry, but for her sake, smile...whenever you need someone to talk to,talk to her...she's always there to listen...if u need someone to talk to,you can always call me as well, its not a problem...for any reason u need someone to talk to, I'm just a call away k? Don't worry... *hugs*


Me:Okay!*hugs* :) promise not to cry easily anymore, this will be the last time, just awhile more. then will try to sleep. :)


Rich: Cry once in awhile, its good =) but save the tears for when u really need to let them go k? =) and don't forget, there's people who love u all around u ok? =) sleep nicely and have sweet dreams k? I'll see u soon =) *hugs*
(it was meant to be a secret between me and him but since I like it so much so I changed my mind to share with you all!^^)

and guess what? My eyes was so bengkak the next day and all my friends thought it was because I didn't get enough sleep. Only me and Rich knew...haha :D