I cried, again

I cried that day
I was halfway doing my homework
Then I thought of mom
When the time she asks me to sleep
When every time I work till late night

I took out the stack of photos I brought
Start flipping through it
I wanna put it into my laptop
Then start snapping picture
Transfer into computer
Edit the colors...
Done!

And then I uploaded one of it onto Facebook
And then I realized
Actually I haven't accept the fact that she had left me
And I posted this:

Until today, I still unable to 100% accept the fact that you had leave me, I have been telling myself in this 2 years that one day, you might just jump out of nowhere and surprise me, and tell me you just went for a vacation.

Yeah, that was what in my mind

For this 2 years plus soon to be 3 years

Right after I posted this

My tears drop

I can't stop crying

I meant it, I can't stop it

I panic

I want to talk to someone

but everyone was asleep

I saw dadu online

He once told me

He's always a phone away when I need him

But I was crying

So I didn't

I find him on fb chat after I stopped

He was missing his mom too

He tried to console me

But his words made me cry again

Thanks anyway, dadu!!! ;)